Photo: Photo-illustration: James Gallagher This week, an art student experiences the power of touch after a long time without it: 24, single, Bay Area.6:50 a.m. I’m dreaming about my new surfer crush, S. In the dream, I’m trying to tell an old friend to leave so that S and I can make out. But suddenly the friend’s hands are all over me, touching every inch of my body. I wake up right before it goes any further, horny and confused.
12:30 p.m. D and I have been walking and talking for a few hours now and I am feeling so many things at once. I want to kiss him, punch him, and run as fast as I can in the opposite direction. It’s sort of nice to have this conversation socially distanced, because it rules out the possibility of making physical contact. He’s a really sweet person, and being reminded of that hurts. I miss him, but I also know that I can’t be with him. We’re on the same page about this, which feels weirdly good.
8 p.m. I really wish this was all over and I could go sit in a bar and space out, eavesdrop, lose myself. I’m sick of my thoughts! Instead I go for a drive and listen to the radio. When I get home I text S that I’m excited to hang out this weekend, but ask if we can check in about COVID safety before. He says of course. For now I fantasize about being touched by someone and fall asleep listening to the rain.10:30 a.m.
7 p.m. I send a text about the COVID of it all and ask what he’s been doing for safety. Then I get high. Now we’ll have to wait and see if he’s ghosting me or not … 6 p.m. WHAT DO I WEAR!? I haven’t had to get dressed for an occasion in 10 months and let me tell you, getting back into it does NOT feel like riding a bike. My entire wardrobe is on the floor as I try to figure out an outfit that makes me look and feel sexy/cool/comfy. Part of me wants to look super feminine, but when I put on a dress I feel alienated from the whole situation. I end up wearing jeans and a shirt. I blast Normani as I finish getting ready for some … motivation.
11 a.m. It would be easy for me to spend the whole day with him, but I remind myself that maintaining my independence right now is important to me.
I think the terms and conditions policy you guys have is rather unconscionable. Is there a way to amend that? I think more people would like to submit knowing they have some control/autonomy over their work?
These articles seem like shit...but the pics...😍😍😍
sonaliranade Typical perverted white xtians 'BROADCASTING' their 'personal emotions' to the entire world.
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